Fail fail fail!!
So I’m failing massively at this whole blogging thing this week. Why? I’m preparing for the Spark Your Wellness cleanse (I’m doing level 3 with Gena, who is a major inspiration for me) and I’m trying to get my head on straight! I’ll be back soon with an update, including pictures of my cleanse journal, how I’ve been preparing, my thoughts and intentions going into the cleanse, my goals, my difficulties, and of course, my food.
Right now, honestly, my biggest fear and road block is learning to eat three square, nutritious meals a day. I don’t do that. My normal eating schedule is: Don’t eat all day, grab a triple venti soy latte from Starbucks at 630 before Pilates, come home from Pilates, don’t eat more, eventually give in to cravings and eat an unnecessary amount of cookies/cereal/something stuffed with sugar and fat. Real healthy. Diet of champions, for sure. I’m tired of it, but last week when I tried to eat three meals a day, I basically failed and spent a hell of a lot of time berating myself for eating “so much,” even though I ate like nothing. I look at the pictures and think, “That’s really not a lot,” but physically doing it felt like SO MUCH, and that really scares me, because I used to be a girl who could eat an entire box of cereal, a bag of microwave popcorn, and a Cup-o-Noodles within one afternoon without thinking twice or gaining an ounce (of course I was also fourteen then…). I have to relearn healthy habits and I’m hoping the cleanse will help me.
Sorry for the boring and pictureless post, but I’ll make it up to you soon.
Oh, b-t-dubs tonight in Pilates, while we were doing planks, Steph, my fave instructor, wandered by me and poked me in the abs, and exclaimed, “Hey, I feel some abs in there!” Abs that were definitely NOT there four months ago. 😀
Awesome. Hope everyone’s having a great, productive, intuitive week.